the most attractive thing about a boy is his music

*YOU TAKE MY LIFE WHEN YOU DO TAKE THE MEANS WHEREBY I LIVE*

no i will NOT 'go weird' and no i will NOT react badly

no i will NOT compromise your safety and no i will NOT break under pressure

i will NOT forget about my responsibilities and i will NOT wish to

i will NOT give up this fight

and i will NOT have everyone lose their trust in me

all i fucking want

is a hug and someone to laugh with

it may seem as if everyone is saying the same thing around about now

but whatever. i just sit here doing nothing thinking about how people around me just seem to always have it better off.

i know it's not true. i know i am lucky but i don't CARE

all my freaking life i've sat and nodded while having the same message drilled into me

"do not take what you have for granted.. you're very lucky"

lucky is the exact opposite of what i feel

did you know that i actually don't handle my anger as well as everyone thinks

did you know every time we have an overcast day i get really, really down

did you know that i've been fighting for a break for a very long time now

did you know

i've had enough

but i'm never going to get enough

because i can win. i can beat this all. i can show everyone that i have the strength it takes to conquer my weaknesses.

the world had better fucking watch out

i'm half prepared and in need of help, but yeah

i can fucking do it.