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it's not a religious song

but it has biblical references.

guess what

i found a poem i wrote a long time ago in my old blog
i miss the days when the words came easily

when you see a falling leaf,

do you find dismay?

when you hear a closing door,

does it hurt you deep inside?

when the breeze welcomes the return of your fear,

do you try and fight it with all your strength?

look out the window

the rain is falling

the sun is hidden

the sky is gray

take a leap, a jump, a chance

defy gravity and defy yourself

understand what it is like to be free

jump like there is someone to catch you

i am that person

jump for me

bippityboppityboo.x

sid vicious

ever had a day when you just don't know what to do with yourself except sit around and think about life and how you've fucked things up?
welcome to sunday first of november

hiccups.x

MIA

some people i am seeing differently, maybe it's for the better
but to be honest... i don't like what i see. at all

to a girl. i used to want to be there for you. but now i just don't understand. your mindset is so confusing and frustrating. just try to understand. not just for you, but for me. i don't understand why you play with people. surely reasoning is a better tactic? you say i don't get it. of course i fucking get it, i'm not retarded. ever stop to think that maybe you're the one that doesn't understand?
i love you babe and i probably always will
but you're not making it easy.

fml. change is looking good around about now.

bintang.x

paper heart

afternoon all

i have blisters on my hands from rowing

im sorry for being a bitchy cox

it was the boats fault yeah ?

i can't believe how good it felt when i realised how hot it was

it feels like being a little kid again

theres a kid, whom i love

he makes me slightly sad

because we were close, and then we weren't anymore

but i'm hoping we will be again
because i miss him
and i can't help remember what a good friend he was to me

i cannot WAIT for the musical next year

as long as i havent pissed off the scary man enough, i'm hoping i'll get in

the only thing is i want it for the wrong reason

which leads me to my next point...

...once upon a time there was a boy

he drove this girl insane

she hated him with all her heart

she hated him, because no matter how much she tried, she couldn't hate him

i need to talk to you alone. fishsticks.

gryffindoor.x

oh look it's a robot

second post for today


in a differnt mind-set now though i guess





you just doesn't get it. i can't push myself any further. but i will, for you.

sometimes you want to press the pause button and save the moment so you can look at it over and over again.


today i got soaked from dancing in the rain and with my friends.
the weird looks i got were totally worth it

be jealous





ready for the random thought of the day?
i have seen stacks of raibows in my life
every now and then i'll stop and look at one


but when you think about it, we must miss alot of them


how many rainbows have shone neglected while you sit inside and waste away



jenga.x

copy and paste

Greetings fellow Americans
Am writing to you from l’autobus at exactly 7:10 in the morning :)
Sitting next to me is a pretty girl who I don’t actually know but just follow to school and watch movies with. Boy in the striped pyjamas anyone?


I haven’t blogged in a while and I was actually beginning to wonder if you can get writers block when you’re not technically a writer…the funny thing is I would open to a new post and just stare at the text box, waiting for the words. Endless waiting only resulted in confusion and frustration and once again I am left alone wondering how the human brain can be such a shit.


Yesterday was a good day so why didn’t it feel like it? I guess I was just tired. Rowing was fun though. I actually love my girls, even though I occasionally freaked about timing.being a cox is fun : )


Only a few days ago change was so scary, and so depressing. It turns out it’s more scary and depressing that it’s not so scary anymore. Maybe it’d be good for me after all. no? okay.

The other day. I kept my promise and did one of the scariest things of my life. So, the promise was kept intact unlike my hope, which ended up shattered. One day he’ll open his eyes and understand what he actually does to me. It should be classified as a crime. I wonder if he’d act different if he could see. it is a weird as feeling that when I give him money, I end up being the one benefiting. Funny about that.


Today is a big, big, big, big, day. i’m hoping that what is going to happen is actually going to happen in effort to reduce false hope? Maybe? Well I’m gonna get my hugging arms ready (:


Trixie over and out.
Whatscookinggoodlooking.x

not in a good state

stupid house music

i got home and went to sleep

apparently i ate dinner at one point

fuck if i know what i had or if i liked it?

maybe another day

i wanted to rollerblade home today
but then i realised, my street is on an angle
and i got scared.
i was horribly depressed and had to walk home carrying my rollerblades and without shoes
but i was cheered up of how funny i would have looked to passing cars.

p.s. i'm going to keep my promise to myself for tomorrow.

whatilikeaboutyou.x

its four am

and i'm doing homework

my skin's not that thick

i feel so selfish
dont worry. i will lie for you.

do you know the muffin man?

today i had the most fun i've had with my family in a very very long time.
it was so amazing, i figured out just how much i crave spontaneity (i think that's how you spell it)
how is it that when i was out having just that much fun that i still think about you.

you dictate my actions and corrupt my thoughts and the worst part is you don't even realise you're doing it.

i spent a lot of time today remembering those days that we would hold hands when no one could see
we would text until we fell asleep
you even "felt my arm for some reason"

it physically makes me hurt.
do you remember?
do you even want to?

knocktwice.x

if only

i wish i was brave enough.
i wish you were brave enough too.

and then there was one. thank god

how is it possible that after all this time you still manage to make me feel this way.

i want to talk, i want to know

have you ever noticed that when you're constantly surrounded my noise... you are left to your own thought that silence is just so freaking loud

cheerupbuttercup.x

pop guns

yeah okay so my last post was an exaggeration

i was going to delete it

but then i realised that if that was what i wanted to say yesterday then i guess it counts for something, even if it's not what i truly feel.

is it weird that i have massive conflicts with my past-self ?

anyway

there are two people

and i feel that there shouldn't be

and that i'm in the same position i was in like over six months ago.

oh joy

pardon jaune homme, je dezire un ordinateur et un pull mais je deteste VERT

:):) i look foward to french now

today i was a model for half and hour

tasharnay is fair amazing just in case you were wondering

hm hm hm so much to say about so many different things. one of the talents i admire most in people (after sense of humour) is being good with words. sometimes you just have so much to say or are faced with a moment where you want to say what you want to say but you just cant say it. i wish i could say it.

was confronted by something weird

it turns out there are other people in the world who think like me

who knew right?

whizzbang.x

just a personalized message to a certain person

seeing you makes my day

maybe that's why i've had a shitty two days?

when is not at the moment
you should have classified

because now i'm just full of questions

friends still
thats cool (:

piedpiper.x

um, you're retarded

rowing is so much more than i could have imagined
it's not just the sport that works us to death and the reason for our future tank-ness
it is a time three times a week that i get to spend with a few magnificent people i can call my friends.
we're not just a crew.

stroke

shes incredible. sometimes when I'm down all i have to do is think of her and I'm okay.

PS. I DO NOT AIR TONGUE

that was one time...

3rd seat

me :)

2nd seat

it physically hurts when i think of how much i adore this chick. she means so much to me even though sometimes it doesn't seem like it when i don't reply on msn. i love her forever

bow

shes silly. and i mildly hate her for not coming to PE this thursday

but that's alright because shes pretty

like crazy pretty

yeah i really do hate her

in the nicest possible way :)

sometimes we row synchronized and in time, perfectly relying on each other and our own trust. the concentration sinks in and we become one. sometimes one of us will mess up but we recover and work together to regain our state of flawed perfection. each stroke is longer than the last and we are forever improving. we lose shoes, balance and patience but in the end when we realise you can totally see muscles in our arms and feel the strength as we run up the stairs, it's totally worth it.

you see what i did there

in the old country we call that a metaphor.

adieu

livingonaprayer.x

days are hard

proud i can never be of what i hate. to be thankful even of hate, that is meant love

there is so much to do and see and i can't seem to manage it all
why is it that little bald Canadian french teachers justdont get it

worst day since like, last week
i start to wonder what the point is
but then i sit and tan with my friends while we talk about xena and eat flowers
i actually love some people more than you can imagine.
there's a girl who i enjoy talking to an unjustifiable amount. i am so so so jealous of how strong she is and how beautiful she is even though she doesn't know it. and she doesn't believe me when i tell her. I'm glad to have you miss, otherwise who would cut the fat off the bacon for me?


but then there are those friends who it took a while to warm to, but you know that now they will be there for you when it really counts

i want to scream, cry, shout, sing, laugh, jump up and dance all at the same time
i need some kin of massive way to just let everything go before the hurting becomes permanent. - truly my largest fear in the world
hmm. is it still bottling stuff in if you're aware you're doing it?

oh and a shout out to a very special guy. my true feelings are written for you on the camberwell primary playground. enjoy (:

hopscotch.x

gah

it sounds cliche but sometimes people are so wrapped up in their own hurt and issues that they don't realise that the effects are actually playng larger on others.
it's not what you've done.
stop apologising.

how is it that we're all so different but being an individual is frowned upon?
sometimes you just can't agree with what people are saying, is that so hard to understand ?

sometimes i feel like in a room full of people i am the only one thinking.

scoobysnacks.x

as a great woman once said
'when you're bored, there's nothing to do and your sewing machine is broken...write blogs about nothing'

oh yes
that great woman is me

I'm liking how it's getting hotter
good sign no?

i ate too much food yesterday
and my stomach is all retarded
i am actually so worried that it will stay that way
i think I'll do some exercise (:
..later...

movies with Annie and Izy will be fun
i miss my Anneliese
"we can hug on and on and on and it never gets awkward" :|
haha there are some people ilove a crazy amount
these are the people that put up with my whining and do things like source out the most epic converses ever because they knew id adore them
Tu comprendes?

"Like a river flows to the sea, that's the way it goes somethings are meant to be" - Elvis Presley

bobloveswendy.x

today was good for ages
then it wasnt
from there it got worse
now its juts fucking sad

nothappyjan.x

the knights that say ni

you know that when you're meeting at noodle box, you are going to have fun

we hung out in playgrounds, climbed fences, drank energry drinks, rolled down hills, hung up side down, ate at maccas and played ding dong three steps

sounds gay? fuck you.

hollygolightly.x

upside down back to front

today i thought id go to the op shop
so i got on my bike
and then i got lost
so i came back home
and then i ate ice cream

today was a fun day.

captainfeathersword.x