c'est la vie

2009 is almost over
i can't help replaying some of the crazy-cool shenanigans that went on

• people i can't believe i hadn't been friends with before. i love you.
• boys and the stuff that comes with them
• fights that we thought would never end
• photos... lots of photos..
• rule breaking like never before (: what hardnuts we are
• and of course the soppy stuff. the tears, laughs, times of trials and other shit

but really i remember 2009 to be the year of fucking amazing fun
annndd i would reallyreally like to thank that previously mentioned gang of miscellaneous lovers for making this year so incredibly super.

every single year i make resolutions that i end up forgetting about within approximately 2weeks?

HOWEVER children, 2010 will be oh so different because i am actually so ridiculously determined to stick to them this year
*clears throat like an old man*

1. exercise. for real. not my current kind where i do a couple of sit-ups and then get bored and eat mnm's instead.
2. courage. this year is going to be based on intuition and instincts. i am going to live in the moment, every moment. spontaneity is my new philosophy
3. appreciation. i have this awful habit of taking the greatest things in my life -*cough* friends cough*- for granted. from now on i am doing my part.
4. love. general love for all i guess. except those freaking iris birds with the sword things coming out of their face. i always feel like they'll peck out my eyes and proceed by stealing my food. joy.
5. memories. if everything goes to plan, 2010 will be the year of making memories unlike any other

2010 will be our year.

so heres to the end of a year that was ONLY alittlebit ugh.

and to the start of the year when we make the most of everything
then bash every year seven that comes our way.

most of all here's to a new year,

that will never see us coming.

daddy, how come she get's to fly?

goodbye, goodbye, good friends goodbye.

coz now its time to go

but hey i say, well that's okay

coz we'll see you very soon i know.

goodbye, goodbye, good friends goodbye

and tomorrow just like today.

the moon, the bear and the big blue house

will be waiting for you to come and play.

bye now.

do not read this post

off to queensland

and planning my skydiving thing

life is good

and yet, i miss you

oh fiddlesticks

santa has lef the building

queensland,ipod touch,sims 3,perfume,money,vouchers
but i'm thinking my favourite was the rubix cube?
hm it's tough competition.

i feel like a little kid :)

heythanks

yes.. that is ron barassi..

i was reading over my old posts

and i saw comments i had never read
on a post i wrote in a time where i wasn't feeling so good

thankyou john

who are you?

use in moderation

you're unlike any other

and anything better, is not as good

how are you doing this? I’m keeping an eye on the future

an eye on the past

& the present in my pocket

just in case I need a door

…into a brave new world where all solutions end up with my head.

Buried to my neck in sand.

Enough, enough bowing down to disillusion!

Hats off & applause to rogues & evolution!

The ripple effect is too good not to mention.

If you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention!

It’s too good, too good, not to have an effect.

I’m keeping an eye on the pulsean ear to the track & penance in a locket

I’m dropping from the highest floor.

When it hits ground I watch it smash to pieces.

Songs of liberation echo from the dust. The dust.

Enough bowing down to disillusion!

Hats off & applause to rogues & evolution!

The ripple effect is too good not to mention.

If you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention!

It’s too good, too good, not to have an effect!

Enough, enough, enough, enough, enough!

Enough bowing down to disillusion!

Hats off & applause to rogues & evolution!

The ripple effect is too good not to mention.

If you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention!

It’s too good, too good, too good

… yes.

that is so not raven

this is madness..

i miss you all so much.

a girl who knows me better than i know myself

a boy who critisizes my cooking

a girl who i only use to get to her siblings

a boy who is teaching me how to waltz

a girl who is the only person other than me to listen to incubus

a boy who shaves his beard regularly

a girl who bought me a koala

a boy who is crazy cool

a girl who doesn't need to try as hard as she does

a girl who could kick the shit out of me but doesn't

a girl who is silly and uses the word 'trod'

a girl who is a champion listener. and talker ;)

and all the others who AREN'T cool enough to call a flight of stairs party house.

hm i want the world to be jealous because i know how lucky they all make me feel.

ciao.

he lived in a blackbird and spelled his name backwards

today i wrote a letter to you

and folded it into a plane

i set it flying out my window

but it fell into the drain

i wish i had the courage

i wish i had the balls

i wish you felt what i do

but you don't know me at all.

kel likes orange soda

"why is it only raining on you?"
"because i have an umbrella"

if only i was a hardnut like you

poor poor jordan, what shall he do?

i really hate sneezing
-stretchy face-

quelquelfois je dance avec moi

sometimes you're cool

even when you ask questions like darryl kerrigan.

http://randomwebsite.com/

the name is mrs brendon urie, but grace for short

senior troupe

hey tash casey can we talk about some real issues?

¿por qué no tener los dos?
francesca is my favourite little mexican taco girl.

in a totally non weird way

"my wallet is in my back pocket"

• things i hate:
  people that can't spell
  sunburn
  macadaemias in brownies
  pens that have run out of ink
  my computer
  rat tails
  school
  pencils
  when you stub your toe and think you're going to die
  and sleep. what a waste of time

not next week, the jonas brothers are in town.

you shut your mouth when your talking to me

i actually lover her

she makes me happy

like hundreds and thousands and koalas

but NOT like sunburn or macadaemias in brownies

areyoumentallyretarded?imeanthatinaniceway

have you ever seen a dog fly?

i have.

you say stop, i say go go go

morning all.


today is going to be a good day


oh oh


9 days til christmas


christmas wish list


i wish for more money


i wish for some cool shoes


i wish he would blow me away with some amazing comment


i wish for more courage





and mostly


i wish for forgiveness

"i feel like a rocket ship"

the only way for me to see your face,
to see you,
you have to remove your mask
..but you can keep the cape
and teach me how to fly


happy birthday to my darling
you deserve the world and more

two words..
bad wolf

take a sad song and make it better

hey jude



a combination of people i love, music i love and fairy lights seems to make a good night

thankyou is all i have to say

once a wildcat, always a wildcat.

i am so nervous

please don't collapse

i can't take it.

hey guess what chickadee

i don't have time for you

so don't bother me with your shit

frankly my dear i don't give a damn.

i am going to buy an old telephone

and speak in black and white

nervous but slightly excited

marry me cory monteith

sale was incredible
i have actually never felt so at home
why are indie hippie guys so freaking attractive all the time

i like that my grandparents are in my house and they bought eskimo pies.

can i please throw you in my pond and see if it mutilates your face?

i didn't want to wake you, but there's something i think you should see

yesterday was fair great

ilove a girl with my sewing project around her head

and a boy that is tall enough to touch the skies

and the miscellaneous gang of lovers i keep by my side at all times

but now it is time to dance away

and spend money

364 days til my birthday

my shoes have gone through 2 days of torture

i actually can not wait
like, can not.

unfortunately it's all for the wrong reasons.

one more day
until i'm that little bit older
who knows, maybe a little wiser, taller and even a little richer?
:) i joke
but also not really.

"i appreciate our friendship"
"i appreciate you."

i like hugs

and also when fat people jiggle while running
but i don't like hugging jiggly fat people
because that is just weird.

i wish i was a camel

life is good

i am reminded of this when random strangers give you 30c

on a lighter note philadelphia

there is a secret letter on my notice board from a special girl confessing her adoration of me

but it's sad because i think she was just tipsy at the time ):

we laugh, cry and experiment with snack foods
i will always be there for her

and jay aswell
just to avoid confusion

you know you love me xoxo gossip girl (NOTREALLY IT'S JUST ME)
haha tricked you there
jokes. but seriously

cherry ripe cherry ripe, ripe ripe ripe

i miss you

i love you

so when are you coming back?

i love you

oh cool. um yeah see you soon

i love you

cya.

....i love you

read between the lines

i hate to admit you. i mean it.

you make me uneasy. in a good way.

good luck
i miss you

gentlemen prefer blondes

she carries her ipod in her teeth and her shoes in her hand

her journey lacked direction but had purpose

she was alone, yet not lonely

her bag was empty except for a jar of fireflies

and that was when she melted into cherry cough syrup

i am going to save up for pyramid rock tickets

defy

..for my sake

have you ever wanted to just experiment

test people

test boundaries

i found nemo

so a man asked a woman

if she likes dancing

she told him about her extensive dancing career

and all the lessons as a child

all the different concerts, different costumes

she brags about her trophies

to her he seems entranced

and interested

so she continues

goes on and on to the stranger about the pressure from her mother

and how the makeup did permanant damage to her skin

but how it was worth it

because she got into university on a ballet scholarship

but is training to be a secretary

the man looks at her with a blank look that the woman takes to be speechlessness

expressionless, he walks away

~~~

he was just making conversation

you're a fat loser with body odour

i'm tired.

i choo choo choose you

oh oh
he loves me

even if he doesn't quite know it.

you act like you aint seen a white person before.

sometimes i wonder..what it would be like

if i took off my gravity boots, and i could fly.

is this style or humiliation?

i can't seem to forget

it's like continously falling over

on my face.

you owe me a coke

and a conversation would be nice too..

suckit.x

jeremiah was a bull frog

i had a good day

everything

is turning for the better

except one thing

that is missing

"it't not that easy is bad, it's just that hard is better"

maybe a challenge is better

maybe this will be fun

but maybe

i wont be able to forget

boostjuice.x

ottoman

i like that we hug now.
even if i am too busy throwing saussage rolls when you talk to me

maybe she has stolen you
maybe she was right
maybe you're lying
because you should try harder
when its this obvious, it hurts

~~

i love my schlmazel
ticktock.x

raspberry twists

i dont understand how people can sometimes be so damn stupid

aqua man to the rescue

today was good

i love the people i love

even when they try to drown me

and especially when they feed me mnms and get blue on my face

pikachu i chose you !

i feel good

but kinda weird

like i'm waiting for something

but i don't know what

i want something to happen

but i can't seem to locate my own desires

houston, we have a problem

i tried to search, and figure it out

maybe if i wait

it will find me

aeroplanejelly.x

riddle me this

have you ever fallen in love with a fictional character ?

its friday the thirteenth. and it feels like it

i am not just unlucky, i have personally discovered and created a new meaning to 'crash and burn'

i feel like i am in so deep

and i can't get out

but then i am simulatenously proud of myself for staying level-headed

everyone just seems so annoying all of a sudden

the place i never wanted to leave

suddenly isn't worth staying for

i need a hero; to be rescued

to sweep me away from reality and show me why i like being me again.

anytime would be great thanks

tgif.x

like i'm in a pay phone without any change

the party was fair amazing

there were emos, superheroes, sluts

and i think i even saw a dodgy greek mechanic around somewhere

i love my family

and not the fake one

the real one with three amazing people i go to school with

my mother takes care of me like im a toddler and elvis thanks her for it.

my older brother is the meanest, cruelest, most horrible person in the world and i love him so impossibly much

my twin brother. he is beautiful and manly. he gives the best hugs in town and is part of the exclusive perfect race.

jealous? because you really should be.

today i was meant to be at school

but i went swimming and worked on my tan instead

i have mass homework but none due tomorrow

this my friend is the life

-I'm going to buy a snail and name him Sidley-

poptart.x

james dean loves me back

the thing about cellophane is ,

its pretty.

but when it comes down to it ,

it's transparent.

and when you step on it ,

even only a tiny bit; accidently

it makes a loud noise.

sticksandstones.x

"jesus stole my ears"

how is it that when you're at your lowest, you can still feel on top of the world ?

jiminycricket.x

icy tower

making up your mind would be nice thanks (:
and ill take fries with that

minniemouse.x

j'aime

i love my girls

"re-enactment time. now izy lie on top of me"

fun night.

shes one of my bestest friends in the whole world and she used to be a boy

but because there were lots of girls, she changed into a girl

and then threatened to be turned into a mouse

oh dear

homowork time

adieu

cottoncandy.x

shocking

hm what just happened?
razzledazzle.x

goooood morning vietnam

today will be good

cheerios.x

the last leg is over

on and off
over and over
i have tried to get over you

how is it
that in less than a day
i did it

i feel good.
raspberrytwists.x

we can both be alligators

the waitress is practicing politics

as the businessmen slowly get stoned

yes they're sharing a drink they call loneliness

but it's better than drinking alone.

i finished my costume

coolest fucking thing you'll ever see

fedex.x

less chat more splat

it's not a religious song

but it has biblical references.

guess what

i found a poem i wrote a long time ago in my old blog
i miss the days when the words came easily

when you see a falling leaf,

do you find dismay?

when you hear a closing door,

does it hurt you deep inside?

when the breeze welcomes the return of your fear,

do you try and fight it with all your strength?

look out the window

the rain is falling

the sun is hidden

the sky is gray

take a leap, a jump, a chance

defy gravity and defy yourself

understand what it is like to be free

jump like there is someone to catch you

i am that person

jump for me

bippityboppityboo.x

sid vicious

ever had a day when you just don't know what to do with yourself except sit around and think about life and how you've fucked things up?
welcome to sunday first of november

hiccups.x

MIA

some people i am seeing differently, maybe it's for the better
but to be honest... i don't like what i see. at all

to a girl. i used to want to be there for you. but now i just don't understand. your mindset is so confusing and frustrating. just try to understand. not just for you, but for me. i don't understand why you play with people. surely reasoning is a better tactic? you say i don't get it. of course i fucking get it, i'm not retarded. ever stop to think that maybe you're the one that doesn't understand?
i love you babe and i probably always will
but you're not making it easy.

fml. change is looking good around about now.

bintang.x

paper heart

afternoon all

i have blisters on my hands from rowing

im sorry for being a bitchy cox

it was the boats fault yeah ?

i can't believe how good it felt when i realised how hot it was

it feels like being a little kid again

theres a kid, whom i love

he makes me slightly sad

because we were close, and then we weren't anymore

but i'm hoping we will be again
because i miss him
and i can't help remember what a good friend he was to me

i cannot WAIT for the musical next year

as long as i havent pissed off the scary man enough, i'm hoping i'll get in

the only thing is i want it for the wrong reason

which leads me to my next point...

...once upon a time there was a boy

he drove this girl insane

she hated him with all her heart

she hated him, because no matter how much she tried, she couldn't hate him

i need to talk to you alone. fishsticks.

gryffindoor.x

oh look it's a robot

second post for today


in a differnt mind-set now though i guess





you just doesn't get it. i can't push myself any further. but i will, for you.

sometimes you want to press the pause button and save the moment so you can look at it over and over again.


today i got soaked from dancing in the rain and with my friends.
the weird looks i got were totally worth it

be jealous





ready for the random thought of the day?
i have seen stacks of raibows in my life
every now and then i'll stop and look at one


but when you think about it, we must miss alot of them


how many rainbows have shone neglected while you sit inside and waste away



jenga.x

copy and paste

Greetings fellow Americans
Am writing to you from l’autobus at exactly 7:10 in the morning :)
Sitting next to me is a pretty girl who I don’t actually know but just follow to school and watch movies with. Boy in the striped pyjamas anyone?


I haven’t blogged in a while and I was actually beginning to wonder if you can get writers block when you’re not technically a writer…the funny thing is I would open to a new post and just stare at the text box, waiting for the words. Endless waiting only resulted in confusion and frustration and once again I am left alone wondering how the human brain can be such a shit.


Yesterday was a good day so why didn’t it feel like it? I guess I was just tired. Rowing was fun though. I actually love my girls, even though I occasionally freaked about timing.being a cox is fun : )


Only a few days ago change was so scary, and so depressing. It turns out it’s more scary and depressing that it’s not so scary anymore. Maybe it’d be good for me after all. no? okay.

The other day. I kept my promise and did one of the scariest things of my life. So, the promise was kept intact unlike my hope, which ended up shattered. One day he’ll open his eyes and understand what he actually does to me. It should be classified as a crime. I wonder if he’d act different if he could see. it is a weird as feeling that when I give him money, I end up being the one benefiting. Funny about that.


Today is a big, big, big, big, day. i’m hoping that what is going to happen is actually going to happen in effort to reduce false hope? Maybe? Well I’m gonna get my hugging arms ready (:


Trixie over and out.
Whatscookinggoodlooking.x

not in a good state

stupid house music

i got home and went to sleep

apparently i ate dinner at one point

fuck if i know what i had or if i liked it?

maybe another day

i wanted to rollerblade home today
but then i realised, my street is on an angle
and i got scared.
i was horribly depressed and had to walk home carrying my rollerblades and without shoes
but i was cheered up of how funny i would have looked to passing cars.

p.s. i'm going to keep my promise to myself for tomorrow.

whatilikeaboutyou.x

its four am

and i'm doing homework

my skin's not that thick

i feel so selfish
dont worry. i will lie for you.

do you know the muffin man?

today i had the most fun i've had with my family in a very very long time.
it was so amazing, i figured out just how much i crave spontaneity (i think that's how you spell it)
how is it that when i was out having just that much fun that i still think about you.

you dictate my actions and corrupt my thoughts and the worst part is you don't even realise you're doing it.

i spent a lot of time today remembering those days that we would hold hands when no one could see
we would text until we fell asleep
you even "felt my arm for some reason"

it physically makes me hurt.
do you remember?
do you even want to?

knocktwice.x

if only

i wish i was brave enough.
i wish you were brave enough too.

and then there was one. thank god

how is it possible that after all this time you still manage to make me feel this way.

i want to talk, i want to know

have you ever noticed that when you're constantly surrounded my noise... you are left to your own thought that silence is just so freaking loud

cheerupbuttercup.x

pop guns

yeah okay so my last post was an exaggeration

i was going to delete it

but then i realised that if that was what i wanted to say yesterday then i guess it counts for something, even if it's not what i truly feel.

is it weird that i have massive conflicts with my past-self ?

anyway

there are two people

and i feel that there shouldn't be

and that i'm in the same position i was in like over six months ago.

oh joy

pardon jaune homme, je dezire un ordinateur et un pull mais je deteste VERT

:):) i look foward to french now

today i was a model for half and hour

tasharnay is fair amazing just in case you were wondering

hm hm hm so much to say about so many different things. one of the talents i admire most in people (after sense of humour) is being good with words. sometimes you just have so much to say or are faced with a moment where you want to say what you want to say but you just cant say it. i wish i could say it.

was confronted by something weird

it turns out there are other people in the world who think like me

who knew right?

whizzbang.x

just a personalized message to a certain person

seeing you makes my day

maybe that's why i've had a shitty two days?

when is not at the moment
you should have classified

because now i'm just full of questions

friends still
thats cool (:

piedpiper.x

um, you're retarded

rowing is so much more than i could have imagined
it's not just the sport that works us to death and the reason for our future tank-ness
it is a time three times a week that i get to spend with a few magnificent people i can call my friends.
we're not just a crew.

stroke

shes incredible. sometimes when I'm down all i have to do is think of her and I'm okay.

PS. I DO NOT AIR TONGUE

that was one time...

3rd seat

me :)

2nd seat

it physically hurts when i think of how much i adore this chick. she means so much to me even though sometimes it doesn't seem like it when i don't reply on msn. i love her forever

bow

shes silly. and i mildly hate her for not coming to PE this thursday

but that's alright because shes pretty

like crazy pretty

yeah i really do hate her

in the nicest possible way :)

sometimes we row synchronized and in time, perfectly relying on each other and our own trust. the concentration sinks in and we become one. sometimes one of us will mess up but we recover and work together to regain our state of flawed perfection. each stroke is longer than the last and we are forever improving. we lose shoes, balance and patience but in the end when we realise you can totally see muscles in our arms and feel the strength as we run up the stairs, it's totally worth it.

you see what i did there

in the old country we call that a metaphor.

adieu

livingonaprayer.x

days are hard

proud i can never be of what i hate. to be thankful even of hate, that is meant love

there is so much to do and see and i can't seem to manage it all
why is it that little bald Canadian french teachers justdont get it

worst day since like, last week
i start to wonder what the point is
but then i sit and tan with my friends while we talk about xena and eat flowers
i actually love some people more than you can imagine.
there's a girl who i enjoy talking to an unjustifiable amount. i am so so so jealous of how strong she is and how beautiful she is even though she doesn't know it. and she doesn't believe me when i tell her. I'm glad to have you miss, otherwise who would cut the fat off the bacon for me?


but then there are those friends who it took a while to warm to, but you know that now they will be there for you when it really counts

i want to scream, cry, shout, sing, laugh, jump up and dance all at the same time
i need some kin of massive way to just let everything go before the hurting becomes permanent. - truly my largest fear in the world
hmm. is it still bottling stuff in if you're aware you're doing it?

oh and a shout out to a very special guy. my true feelings are written for you on the camberwell primary playground. enjoy (:

hopscotch.x

gah

it sounds cliche but sometimes people are so wrapped up in their own hurt and issues that they don't realise that the effects are actually playng larger on others.
it's not what you've done.
stop apologising.

how is it that we're all so different but being an individual is frowned upon?
sometimes you just can't agree with what people are saying, is that so hard to understand ?

sometimes i feel like in a room full of people i am the only one thinking.

scoobysnacks.x

as a great woman once said
'when you're bored, there's nothing to do and your sewing machine is broken...write blogs about nothing'

oh yes
that great woman is me

I'm liking how it's getting hotter
good sign no?

i ate too much food yesterday
and my stomach is all retarded
i am actually so worried that it will stay that way
i think I'll do some exercise (:
..later...

movies with Annie and Izy will be fun
i miss my Anneliese
"we can hug on and on and on and it never gets awkward" :|
haha there are some people ilove a crazy amount
these are the people that put up with my whining and do things like source out the most epic converses ever because they knew id adore them
Tu comprendes?

"Like a river flows to the sea, that's the way it goes somethings are meant to be" - Elvis Presley

bobloveswendy.x

today was good for ages
then it wasnt
from there it got worse
now its juts fucking sad

nothappyjan.x

the knights that say ni

you know that when you're meeting at noodle box, you are going to have fun

we hung out in playgrounds, climbed fences, drank energry drinks, rolled down hills, hung up side down, ate at maccas and played ding dong three steps

sounds gay? fuck you.

hollygolightly.x

upside down back to front

today i thought id go to the op shop
so i got on my bike
and then i got lost
so i came back home
and then i ate ice cream

today was a fun day.

captainfeathersword.x

computer says noo.

did you eat all the hotdogs? no...i mean yes !


second worst movie i have seen in the last two weeks
lucky i had someone moderately bareable with me

i love her sometimes (:


toinfinityandbeyond.x

they lived on treacle

"holy shit bloody mary is going to kill us"

watching the footy show
dancing in sync
eating kfc
singing to roxanne

lillie and grace friends 1995-2009 and forever

rugrats.x